in denial

i hate u
'cause i don't know how to love u
is so hard to be around u
and keep breathing, and keep walking
and keep smiling,
and keep pretending that my feelings are my allies

i hate u
'cause i don't know how to live with u
is so hard not to miss u
and keep thinking, and keep talking
and keep my heart from aching
and keep pretending that i'm not shaking,
that my words make perfect sense
and that my brain is not yet my worst enemy

i hate u
'cause i ignore what it takes to love u
and i hate u and i don't seem to be able to stop it
and i don't know if is wort the sacrifice
and i got these million questions
and all these random answers
and it's driving me crazy

i'm aching, i'm melting
and in the meantime the time flies by
and i have no clue of what i'm gonna do
with my life, with my desires, with all these moons.